| Location | Gloucester |
| Age | 42 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 10/08/1965 |
| Date of Death | 01/04/2008 |
| Visitors | 1,761 since 27/09/2009 |
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What can I say about my beautiful and so much missed sister. Growing up with you was a wonderful experience. I looked up to you every day, you were my inspiration. I wanted to be everything you were and do everything you did.
We experienced so much together Nicky, and followed each other everywhere. If you moved, I followed and vice versa. After moving to Gloucester and your long term relationship failing (not down to you trying so very hard to keep it together, for some reason you loved him very much but you were too good for him babes!!)and then Dad suddenly dying, you started going your separate way. You made friends with people who I didnt get on with and didnt like their lifestyles but I was always there for you. You told me things and asked me never to repeat them, which to this day I havent, not because I dont want people to know that I know but because I will always respect your wishes Sis. I watched you decline so very quickly Nicky and tried everything I could to help you in the last four months of your life. I begged you to keep on trying, telling you that everything was fixable and we could do it together but you were tired and just wanted to be at peace.
I will never get over losing you like we did. Mum is being so strong and Lisa and I have grown closer and your girls are doing everything they can to make you proud, but I would give up anything to have you back with us. I miss you so so much and not a minute goes past when you are not in my thoughts. There are so many things that I want to say and just to hear your voice or see your beautiful smile one more time.
I LOVE YOU SIS - ALWAYS HAVE, ALWAYS WILL. I know I will see you again someday but life is never going to be the same again.
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Sadness has come.
It has spread darkness over happiness we once knew.
So now we will hold our hart in two.
However life will bloom again.
We will not give up we will smile
Flowers will come
Blue skys appear
Life will be beautifull
Even though you are not here
For when we meet you
Whenever and wherever that may be
We can say we have lived
and i know you will smile and say
I am proud of thee.
sent with love to wish you and your Angel/angels Easter Blessings.may your home have light ,health ,peace and hope love halina and her angels xxxxxxxxxthank you for all your support,gifts,candles poems pics friendship xxxxx
Jesus came to earth
To show us how to live,
How to put others first,
How to love and how to give
Then He set about His work
That God sent Him to do;
He took our punishment on Himself;
He made us clean and new.
He could have saved Himself,
Calling angels from above,
But He chose to pay our price for sin;
He paid it out of love.
Our Lord died on Good Friday,
But the cross did not destroy
His resurrection on Easter morn
That fills our hearts with joy.
Now we know our earthly death,
Like His, is just a rest.
We'll be forever with Him
In heaven, where life is best.
So we live our lives for Jesus,
Think of Him in all we do.
Thank you Savior; Thank you Lord.
Help us love like you!
By Joanna Fuchs
BUTTERFLIES FROM HEAVEN
When we lose our loved ones they never die
For I know once heaven takes their souls
The Dear Lord leaves a little of them here
To turn into beautiful butterflies
So they can be near our hearts
Blessed are those who can see the beauty
Of the life which has gone to what is "God's Art"
When we look for the angels
They will send us Jesus' love
I saw a butterfly today, my last prayer I gave away
Heaven is more than souls of our loved ones
When a father, mother, a brother, sister or a child dies
Their hearts live in those who have loved them
Every grain of sand, every sunrise and sunset
All the good things we know and love
They all go to Jesus for Him to protect
As a gift, The Lord, lets us have a glimpse of those we love
For a brief moment in time, for a short while
A butterfly is seen at our window, sent from heaven
Then we know, all will be well with those we love.
..I believe in angels, yet I cannot see,
the proof that angels exist...
I believe in God, yet I've never seen,
a physical God in our midst.
I believe in Jesus, as God's only Son,
who died for the sake of our sin...
and I believe in the Spirit, who lives in me,
and guides me through the world I live in.
FAITH is the foundation of a godly life
as we believe what our eyes cannot see...
only our hearts can fully explain,
what Faith is to those who believe.
The beauty of Faith is like undying love
of a shepherd who cares for his sheep;
he guards and protects them with all that he has...
like our Faith; we guard it to keep.
� Copyright Jill Lemming
God Are You Real?
"God, are you real?"
The little girl whispered.
"God, speak to me."
And a Meadowlark sang,
But the child did not hear.
So the child yelled,
"God, speak to me!"
And the thunder rolled across the sky,
But the child did not listen.
The child looked around and said,
"God, let me see you."
And a star shone brightly,
But the child did not notice.
And the child shouted,
"God, show me a miracle!"
And a life was born,
But the child did not know.
So the child cried out in despair,
"Touch me God,
and let me know you are here!"
Whereupon, God reached down
and touched the child,
But the child brushed the butterfly away,
and walked away unknowingly.
Often times, the things we seek
are right underneath our nose.
"Don't miss out on your blessings because
they aren't packaged
the way that you expect."
Author Unknown
sent from halina with love xxxxxxxxx
ALWAYS ON MY MIND
Time has stood still for those who love you,
the grief is still fresh, their hearts are still blue.
Memories can ease pain but they never can fill,
the space that is left when they think of you still.
So stay near to those who miss you each day,
for they carry a sadness since you went away.
Send the strength to cope where others have tried,
and some love for their hearts that hurt deep inside.
Mum misses you so very much Nix!!!
Don't judge me for how I left this world,
Remember the love I gave,
A lot of grief will follow me
For the decision that I made.
Changes appear in everyone's life
Some good, some bad,
The one I chose for myself
Made everyone very sad.
But in time the memories
will heal the hurt of hearts
And my presence will be felt by all
With an inner peace.
Remember me when the sun is bright
And laughter fills the air
And a moonlit night and a whisper of wind
Will tell you I am there.
Don't look down on my family
Or fill their hearts with blame
For my leaving them without good-byes
Has left them so much pain.
If I could go back in time
I would say a last good-bye
I would tell them to look to tomorrow
And for me, please do not cry.
IS IT A DREAM OR REAL??
I find it so very hard to believe
That you have gone and I must grieve;
I call out your name -- you answer not,
And I look for you in every familiar spot.
Everything seems so strange and surreal,
I ask everyday is it a dream or real?
Where are the soft brown eyes of affection?
Where is the laughter and talk of childhood reflection?
Where is the loving care when I was sick or sad?
Where is the generous soul for which I was glad?
Where is the forgiving and understanding heart?
Where are the bonds that were there from the start?
I miss all the little ways you showed you cared,
For there were so many good moments we shared;
Looking back on my life’s assorted scenes,
I realized you taught me what life truly means;
You were my trusted confidante and best friend,
On whose loving support I could always depend.
I look at your smiling face in all my photos;
Memories flood my mind as I touch the mementos
From the happy times you and I have had,
But now these bring tears and make me sad;
For the time together went by in a wink,
Life was not as long as we’d like to think.
Sometimes memories bring comfort and make me smile,
But there are times when grief takes over for a while;
Friends offer gentle words and prayers to console,
And tell me what has happened to your loving soul;
Can it be true what they say of time healing grief?
Is it enough when they say death has given you relief?
Can we believe what others say of a better place,
Where our beloved ones rest in God’s warm embrace?
I should be happy you’re free of pain and sorrow,
And rejoice that you’ll always have tomorrow.
How can I then be so heartbroken and selfishly cry,
Return to me from that peaceful place where you lie!”
Now I look down at your name on a cold hard stone
That says little of the loving light you have shone;
It tells nothing of the wonderful person you were,
And only serves to remind me of the painful loss I endure;
But I know your kind soul wants no tears or pain,
Instead you’d want warm memories and love to remain.
Although I cry and stand grief-stricken by your grave,
I promise not to forget the loving memories you gave;
But still I miss you so very much my sister dear,
And your caring words I once again long to hear;
My heart’s only solace is one day I will see you as before,
Beckoning me to come join you on that white distant shore.
NIX
18 months now you have been gone,
The heartbreak and pain is still so strong,
No one can see behind this mask of mine
The sadness within me for all of time.
If I were a bird or even a plane
I would fly from this earth to bring you home again.
I would hold you tight never to let go,
Whispering the words I love you so.
Pippas Sister!!!
I know i didnt know you but i feel your sisters pain...... rest in peace little one ....... you were loved xxx the messages i read are heart breaking and hope you are in a lovely warm place xxx
Pippas sister!!
I know i didnt know you but i feel your sisters pain...... rest in peace little one ....... you were loved xxx
I wish I could have held you,
And kissed away your tears.
I wish I could have shielded you,
From all your pain and fears.
I wish you’d come back to me,
Just to tell me you’re Okay.
If only just to whisper,
That your pain has gone away.
I wish I could show you,
The pain you’ve left behind.
I wish I could’ve stopped you,
And time I could rewind.
I’d take you in my arms,
I’d tell you how much I care.
I’d remind you that we love you,
So you needn’t feel despair.
But all these things are beyond me,
My heart has finally broken.
I regret the things I should’ve done,
The words I should have spoken.
I wish you could’ve called me,
Showed me the anguish you felt inside.
Instead you left us wondering,
About the pain you tried to hide.
Now I cry myself to sleep,
You’ve left my world so shattered.
Cause I didn’t get to tell you,
Just how much you really mattered.
I love you Nicky so very much. x
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