Nicola Stacey Martinez

What can I say about my beautiful and so much missed sister. Growing up with you was a wonderful
experience. I looked up to you every day, you were my inspiration. I wanted to be everything you
were and do everything you did.

We experienced so much together Nicky, and followed each other everywhere. If you moved, I followed
and vice versa. After moving to Gloucester and your long term relationship failing (not down to you
trying so very hard to keep it together, for some reason you loved him very much but you were too
good for him babes!!)and then Dad suddenly dying, you started going your separate way. You made
friends with people who I didnt get on with and didnt like their lifestyles but I was always there
for you. You told me things and asked me never to repeat them, which to this day I havent, not
because I dont want people to know that I know but because I will always respect your wishes Sis. I
watched you decline so very quickly Nicky and tried everything I could to help you in the last four
months of your life. I begged you to keep on trying, telling you that everything was fixable and we
could do it together but you were tired and just wanted to be at peace.

I will never get over losing you like we did. Mum is being so strong and Lisa and I have grown
closer and your girls are doing everything they can to make you proud, but I would give up anything
to have you back with us. I miss you so so much and not a minute goes past when you are not in my
thoughts. There are so many things that I want to say and just to hear your voice or see your
beautiful smile one more time.

I LOVE YOU SIS - ALWAYS HAVE, ALWAYS WILL. I know I will see you again someday but life is never
going to be the same again.